AJ Nelson

alright, so, i know i’m going to get crap for this, but i don’t even care anymore. haha. i realize that i haven’t posted anything in forever, but getting a job has a tendency to take me away from my computer. lol. shocking, i know. lmao

anyway, i know i didn’t do April’s, and it’s about time for May’s, so i’ll just do both at the same time.

So…to get started…April. it was definitely full of it’s ups and downs, but then again, what section of life doesn’t? so anyway, yea, it was alright. obviously i survived it, and if you’re reading this, then you did also. so let’s add that one to the list of achievements. haha. so, the best part of April was probably knowing that the end of the school year was close at hand. didn’t officially get over for me until the first week of May, but it was the thought. haha

So, to be honest, that’s about it for April…it was kind of uneventful from what i remember, which isn’t much, which tells you that it wasn’t that great. haha. anyway, now it’s on to May.

many of you may or may not know that May is quite possibly my favorite month of the year. why? because it’s the official start of spring, it starts to warm up, flowers come into bloom, trees regain more of their leaves, and, of course, my birthday. lol. couldn’t leave that one out, that’s a crime in 23 countries ya know. lol.

no, but seriously, i love May, mostly i just love spring-time. it’s a new beginning, a fresh start. a rebirth, if you will, of the earth. “so, AJ, what does that have to do with anything?” well, it’s quite simple really…use this time to give yourself a new beginning. a fresh start. a rebirth. make yourself a better, happier, more positive person. i can promise you that it will make your life infinitely better.

am i telling you all to be perfect? not only no, but hell no! haha. no one can be perfect, we all make mistakes. hell, i make several mistakes every week at work, almost every day. haha. i’m used to making mistakes. mistakes are good things people, stop thinking that they’re bad. without them, how are we supposed to learn from them? how are we supposed to get better?

to finish off here, i wish you all the best. i really do. i know what it’s like to be looked down upon. i know what it’s like to be different and feel like there’s nothing left…like there’s no more light at the end of the tunnel. but i’m here to tell you that there is always light. even in the darkest of places, and the darkest of times, if you’ll just let the light in, it will always penetrate the darkness and reveal your path. it may be foggy at times, and it won’t always be “smooth sailing”, but it will be worth it in the end. believe that, and anything is possible.

AJ Nelson

AHHH!!!! finally, summer is here! for some of you that may be reading this, i know what you’re saying…you’re saying, “shut up AJ, it is not here yet, i still have more school to endure.” yes, i know, and i pity all your sad souls, but never fear, summer is on it’s way to find you. haha.

as the school year comes to a close, i am faced with conflicting feelings. why? well, because while i’m very excited to be able to go home, sleep in my own bed, eat actual food, and be able to work, i am still moving away from many very dear and close friends.

i am also faced with a very important decision, do i or do i not transfer schools after next semester? yes, to some of you, this may come as a shock, but i have been debating this for quite some time actually. i was actually going to transfer after this current/last semester, but i just never really got to it, and i really want to give SUU another shot. but if i do transfer, which is a very high possibility right now, i would end up going to Weber.

many others have a similar decision to make. to college, or not to college? lol. (Hamlet reference, for those that don’t know Shakespeare.) so basically, the question comes down to, real job, or McDonald’s? hahahaha. sorry, i just had to go there. it was begging to be written.

so, in closing, i have to say that i am very excited for summer and look forward to all the good times and memories that shall be made. so i have to ask, what are you planning on doing this summer?

AJ Nelson                           ?

for those of you that don’t know, Jack Reese of Morgan, Utah committed suicide on Sunday, April 22, 2012. Jack was a victim of gay discrimination from the students at school, the community, and even his own family. i am making this post not in memory of his death, but rather of his life.

I didn’t know him personally, and i wish that i had, but i can tell you this much, his life is a great loss to us all. i am extremely sad for his loss, and hope that he is happier wherever he is now. i know that his life meant a lot to many people, and i wish that he had realized this before he shot himself in the head. but now all we can do is hope and pray that this will make people realize that discrimination of gays is a real problem in Utah and needs to be fixed.

Jack, I now speak directly to you. I wish I could have gotten to know you, and I sincerely apologize if you tried to talk to me at some point in time and I didn’t respond or wasn’t paying attention. I know that many people loved you, and therefor miss you greatly. Our community mourns the loss of such a great life, but I wish you the best on the other side and hope to one day be able to talk with you and become friends in the afterlife. Thank you for all you have done to help anyone in your life.

Now, to everyone else….this amazing life could have been saved. I hope you all realize that. Discriminating someone because of their sexual orientation, gender identity, religion, race, or anything else is WRONG! Please think twice before saying something to someone and think how YOU would feel if someone had said that to you.

All suicides in gay teens can be prevented, it just takes love. Does the bible not tell us to love one another? How can we tell God, or anyone for that matter, that we do love one another when we discriminate someone based on their personal life or beliefs?

I’ll close in saying that if you are one who picks on others because of something that makes them who they are, or if you know someone who does, stop it today. End discrimination now. Every little bit helps, and every person can make a difference.

AJ Nelson